Step One: We admitted we were powerless over cocaine and all other mind-altering
substances; that our lives had become unmanageable.
What exactly does the "and all other mind-altering substances" part
mean? I came to Cocaine Anonymous because cocaine had become a problem
in my life!
We in Cocaine Anonymous who have been around a while hear this statement all the
time from newcomers. If you read on we will share with you how we learned that
our real problem was not just cocaine or any specific drug. It was the disease
of addiction.
Some of us never even used cocaine. There were other drugs that got us into
trouble. Or maybe it was the combination of cocaine, alcohol, marijuana or
heroin that had made our lives miserable. C.A.'s first step is viewed by our
fellowship as a "blanket" first step because all types of drug users
are welcome as long as they have the desire to stop using.
In our using days, we rode drug rollercoasters. There were drugs to come down
with, drugs to go up with, and drugs to mellow out with. In recovery, we have
discovered, sometimes the hard way through relapse, that we could not control
the use of any mind-altering substances. If our bodies were not absolutely
drug-free, the compulsion to use was always lurking. We inevitably returned to
our favorite, or went back to an old preference in chemicals. Whatever the drug,
the problem of not being able to stop would resurface, usually stronger than
before.
Here is an example: Imagine you have just run out of cocaine and you can not get
any more. What would you choose as it's substitute? Alcohol? Speed? Heroin? The
list could go on and on. It really wouldn't matter what you substitute for
cocaine. The point is that you would soon find yourself unable to stop and you
would be worrying about when you would run out of your replacement drug.
Alcohol
Alcohol is a mind-altering chemical in liquid form. Many people don't realize it
is no different from cocaine, marijuana, painkillers and tranquilizers in its
ability to lead to addiction. One drink is never enough, just as one hit, fix,
pill or snort is never enough. We are masters at combining and substituting one
drug for another to get high. Many of us never felt that alcohol was part of our
problem. However take away the drug of choice, substitute another and eventually
it becomes a problem drug.
Painkillers
Our bodies and minds don't know the difference between drugs used for pain
relief and drugs used for pleasure. It is wise to inform each of your
physicians, from your dentist to your orthopedic surgeon, from your psychiatrist
to your medical doctor that you are a recovering addict. They might already
know, especially if you have abused prescription drugs. Informing your doctors
is suggested because they should keep this in mind before prescribing anything
that could threaten your recovery.
Sometimes, the use of painkillers is necessary if you are physically suffering.
Don't be alone with your worst enemy. We are people who like drugs a lot! The
drugs can talk to you and soon have you convinced that you need them more
frequently than prescribed. Another recovering addict to talk to, an informed
prescribing physician, and medication dispensed by someone other than yourself
can all be helpful in preventing abuse.
Tranquilizers, Anti-Depressants and other Prescription Drugs
In sobriety we begin to experience feelings that had been buried deep within
ourselves. Sometimes these feelings seem to surface all at once. Follow the
advice of a physician who is aware you are a recovering addict when it comes to
the need to use tranquilizers, antidepressants or other prescription drugs.
Abruptly stopping the use of such drugs can be dangerous and even deadly if not
done under the guidance of an informed physician.
Over-the-Counter and Commonly Used Legal Drugs
Over-the-counter and legal drugs such as cough syrups that contain alcohol
and/or codeine, diet pills that act like speed, and antihistamines that cause
drowsiness (and can be abused to induce sleep) can be just as addicting as
street drugs. We suggest that you become a label reader! There are many more
products on the market that contain mind-altering chemicals that can be
dangerous to an addict with the potential to abuse just about anything.
Ask you doctor or pharmacist if you have questions that are unanswered. Be
honest with your sponsor about what drugs you take or are prescribed to you.
Uninformed addicts are a danger to themselves. When you realize that you no
longer need drugs to come down, go up, or maintain, you have experienced one of
the many joys and freedoms of recovery. You have stopped using and started to
live.
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